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"As I was sitting here staring at the screen wondering what the first few words of this post were going to be, I realized all I could think about was you."
It's amazing how one person can completely change the way you look at life. Normally I would be this brooding teenager full of angst and pent-up emotions. The "teenager" part of that last sentence is not to be taken literally, of course. But whenever she's around things just seem so much brighter and I feel like absolutely nothing can go wrong with my day.
She smiles at me and I wish time stood still.
We spent a few hours together at the mall the other day. She let me carry her bag for the first time. If you could just see how wide this grin is! We ate, and had a few laughs about "short" puns and revenge. Then I took her home - her home, silly - and I met her Mom. Everything was so perfect. Peachy.
But then nothing's perfect.
We have both been quite honest about how we feel for each other. I tell her how much I enjoy being with her and how much I like her. She tells me not to keep my hopes up too much. As much as I'd like to say she's my girl and that I would do everything to protect her, I can't, because she isn't. But I'm working on it.
For now though, I'll let nature take its course. I'm okay with this - this thing that we have, whatever it is. Whatever happens next, I'll let fate decide.
