I Wanna Scream!!
Posted in infuriatum, subservience
And that’s exactly how I feel. I’m in a rut. I am honestly sick and tired of what I’m doing everyday but I can’t get out of it. I need to do this. My family needs me to do this. I know I sound selfish, and I do believe I’m starting to think about myself too much lately, but hell I’ve been doing this for almost 2 years now and I desperately need a change of pace. I’m grateful for the rewards that I get for what I do and I really don’t mind doing it, its just that those rewards barely stay in my pockets for more than 3 days, and for the life of me I can’t figure out how we can get out of this vicious cycle. I just pray that He gives me the strentgh to hold on because I know this can’t go on forever. Sooner or later things will work out fine for all of us. I hope. Somebody throw me a lifejacket. Or a straightjacket. Sheesh.
